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Saturday, August 25, 2012

Feelings

Over a week ago I got a diagnosis that I have a chronic disease. It came out of the blue and shook me a great deal. It isn't that having it is a big deal as much as what can come of it. It is treatable, progression is probably inevitable, and I don't like it.

However, it is what it is.

I know someone who had gotten a similiar diagnosis and when I told her mine and asked for more info on hers. When we saw each other later, she said that she thought I was just looking for someone worse off than I. I really don't have to look far to find people in my world worse off: I have a friend who is in her last struggle with cancer, I have another friend whose sister has health problems that are recent, and I could go on, but I won't.

I didn't speak up about the remark at the time, because I thought she was kidding. After thinking about it, perhaps she wasn't and if not, then I truly did need to apologize. I did.

My mouth seems to run amok sometimes, and I really didn't mean it to. Have you ever had that problem? What did you do about it?

Sometimes God has to give me time to think on my sins for me to acknowledge them and repent of them. And ask for forgiveness.

Til next time.